I seriously can’t believe I haven’t posted on here for 6 months. I knew it was a long time, but wow. I couldn’t even remember how to log into this blog anymore. I guess it has become a stats blog now. Anyway, Sarah made it to her second birthday alive! Her 2-year visit was good, and even better since she didn’t need any vaccinations! Her weight is 25 pounds, putting her in the 40th percentile, her height is 33″, putting her at 50%, and her head is 48 1/2″ around, putting her at 75%. So basically we have a bobble head baby. 
She hasn’t been eating anything lately, so I was a little worried she’d be more underweight. We call her our petite girl, since Jenna was always so big. I guess she started leveling off around 2.
People say “I can’t believe my baby’s already 2″ or 3 or 6 or whatever. But I keep saying I can’t believe she’s ONLY 2. It seems like she’s been around here for years. Maybe it’s because she has literally driven me crazy. Staying home with 2 kids has never been my dream. I know I’m lucky to be able to do it, but I’d be lying if I said I enjoyed it. I am exhausted all the time, I always feel like I need a massage, my back hurts all the time from carrying her around, and I am cranky all the time. What a great mom! To top it off, after a bout with depression last summer, I am on zoloft. The thing is, Sarah is constantly crying. She cries more than any other kid I’ve ever known. She cries and whines about EVERYTHING. I noticed today that from the time I picked them up from glorious MDO to the time we got home, she didn’t cry once. It was a record. And I should mention that it takes us about a minute and a half to get home from there. It was so sweet. She is so sweet and cute when she’s not crying–it’s a shame that is so infrequent! I could go on, but she is crying now since she’s up from her nap. And by the way–Christmas Eve she decided she was done with her crib, so since Christmas Day, she’s been on her mattress on the floor. We have to lock her in her room to get her to stay in there though…
The bottom line is this: I am blessed to be able to stay home with my kids. I love them and they’re great kids, and I think it’s much better for them to be able to stay home than be in daycare (although they might like that better…). But I don’t usually enjoy it and I’m not particularly happy, so I am always going back & forth in my head about diving into a job search. I won’t even mention our financial situation, but I’m sure I’ll still be at home with them for a while. Jenna starts Kindergarten in the Fall, but she’s not the one who causes me all the headaches! I pray that something snaps and Sarah stops being such a pain in the ass and I develop a new attitude about it all.
January 27, 2011 at 8:03 pm
I could’ve written your post word for word when my girls were the same age. I hated being a SAHM… it just wasn’t me. And to top it off my youngest had the same disposition as yours. So crabby and whiny and foot-stompy when she didn’t get her way. Unfortunately, she was like that all the way through 2nd grade, but once it passed, I swear it was like she was a different person. So sweet and loving, just like she had been in moments of calm as a younger child, except (almost) all of the time now. Hang in there! It gets better!
January 28, 2011 at 8:21 am
Yay! I am so glad to see you blog again! It sounds like you really have your hands full. As a teacher, I think I get to experience both worlds…SAHM in the summers and working mom during the school year. I used to always prefer the summers, but now that I have Jack, too, I find just the weekends exhausting! Having to watch a little one who gets into everything nonstop is tiring. And he cries and whines about everything, too! I worry he is getting spoiled because he immediately breaks into heartbreaking sobs if he doesn’t get what he wants! But then I read back in my blog and remember that Ellie cried and whined a lot at that age, too. Which gives me hope that eventually it will get better! Good luck!
February 7, 2011 at 11:43 am
(Like Holly said) glad to see you back. And completely understand why blogging fell by the wayside. I always talk about wanting to stay home with the kids, but honestly, I’m not sure I could handle it.
Is there a way you can find time do something you enjoy (BHAHAHAHAHA – yes, I know this is impossible…) But seriously…give yourself some time.
Being a SAHM is more than a full time job. It’s most demanding job out there. You’re doing great…and you’ll make it through this.
Keep posting, if you need support, or just want to get “it out there.”
Missed hearing updates!